It is not your father or mine, its ours

At Christmas I painted a picture for my son that I had been promising to him for two years, it was not complete at Christmas so I made a joke out of it by drowning him in gifts that replicated the picture (lighthouses). After he opened all the presents I showed him the painting and told him it was not completed. He insisted that it was perfect, took it home, framed it, hung it over his fireplace, and took a picture of it and sent it to me. It still haunts me.
The perfectionist in me has taken up a new hobby just to compensate for what I believe was my lack of talent (like I have time to take on a new hobby). I know I can sketch, so I began to sketch again and am working on a lighthouse scene for him. Now does any of this make sense? No...He loves it and so does everyone that sees it, and I can only see the flaws, but I am so "grateful that I am here" and can "hear him" tell me how beautiful he thinks it is. Like my father said, "it's all in your head." We always perceive things through our own thoughts and put demands on ourselves that we cannot live up to, but why? I have found that it is "ego" that drives us and when we finally separate ourselves from "ego" we find a peaceful mind and all the stress, fear, and expectation we have for ourselves is released and we are free from criticism...because who are we that we can judge anyone including ourselves? There is only one that can judge, and its not your father or mine, its ours.
Psalms 105:7 He is the Lord our God; he carries out judgment throughout the earth.